Today is my Grandfather’s five year angelversary. I cannot even believe that it has been five years because sometimes the pain of losing him hurts just as much as the day it happened. I wanted to create a special video tribute where I can talk about my special memories together with him and share some of my favorite pictures of him. It was extremely hard to film but I did it and today I want to share it with all of you. I truly hope that you enjoy it.
*Grab some tissues! It’s a little long but I promise that it’s worth it.
I knew I forgot to share this moment in my video.
No more Married with Children
In the late evening of June 9th 1997, I was at work and around 9-10pm and my coworker told me that I had a phone call. When I picked up, it was my grandfather. He sounded like he was crying so I got worried. I said “what’s the matter” He then responded “Mitzi, Mitzi can you hear me? Mitzi, Married with Children ended.” I said “what?” He said “Married with Children ended, there’s no more Al Bundy”. I started cracking up. I said “you called me at work to tell me that married with Children” he then said “Yes, yes I did. Do you know how long I watched that show? What am I going to do now?” My coworker heard him and she was cracking up. I told him I would talk to him later and he said “ok just don’t come home without my free sneakers”. We were supposed to sign customers up for the family plan so they can earn free sneakers after their 12th pair but some people weren’t interested so we used to put the purchases under our own phone number and that’s how I used to get him free sneakers.
If you are new to my blog and do not know me personally, you can check out this post that I did two years ago shortly after his three year angelversary. In that post, I go into further details about my childhood and my life with him.
My childhood memories with him are priceless. I could literally be here all day telling you stories about him and will do so with a smile on my face even though it hurts like hell to know that he’s not here anymore. Lord knows that I would give anything just see his smile, to hear his laugh and for one of his hugs. He was something else. When he was serious, he was serious and you were crazy to even mess with him but when he was joking around good Lord we laughed sometimes until tears came out of our eyes. He would say the funniest things and make the silliest facial expressions.
After he passed, I realized that I still had a voicemail from him saved on my phone. It was from Three Kings Day four and a half months prior. When I noticed it, I literally broke down in tears because it meant that I had a way to hear his voice whenever I wanted. It was the best message too because he was joking around and laughing and he ended it with I love you mama. Sometimes when I wish I could just pick up the phone and call him, I listen to the message. It doesn’t matter how much time has passed, it still hurts the same.
My favorite phrase is “I just can’t even” well that is me when I sit back and think of all these memories and think of how much we laughed together. The purpose of my post today was to honor him, to talk about him and to think of all of the special times we shared together. When I hear his song John Mayer Say What You Need to Say, I cry because no matter how much it hurts, I know in my heart that he would not have wanted me to just sit around and depressed. I know that he would want myself and my family to continue on with our lives and be happy but I can’t help but think how is it even possible to be happy without him here with us.
As you can see from my video and after reading this post, he was an amazing man with a big heart and I think that’s one of the things we miss the most about him. Sometimes it seemed impossible to even imagine a life without him in it. I know there are a million people in this world that go through this every day and no matter what you always find a way to say it’s different. I know that every single day he is looking down on me, he is in my heart and I think about him all the time. Of course I wish that he was here still here but that’s being selfish because there’s no way in the world that I would want him to be in pain. As long as I know that I made him smile and laugh when he came home from the hospital and I made him smile a couple times but still nothing in this world could prepare me for what had come next. He was just not my grandpa, he was my friend and I will always remember him as such.
If you have read this post until this point and watched my video, I want to sincerely thank you for taking the time to share this day with me. He touched so many lives and thankfully there’s millions of pictures of him and memories to last a lifetime. One thing is for sure, he will forever live in all of our hearts and we couldn’t have asked for a better guardian angel. It is never easy when someone you love so much passes away, the pain is inevitable and you can’t help but feel that they took a piece of your heart with them. I miss him more than he’ll ever know but I will always believe in my heart that he knew that he was more than my grandpa, he knew that he was my friend.